A Quick Update About Amy...

bananacranapple, you were right.

I was driving home from work this past week after thinking long and hard about everything, and deciding that it really wouldn't be very healthy to try and remain in a friends with benefits situation (especially given my history) when Amy called and asked me if I wanted to come over. I explained to her that I didn't think it would be a very good idea, and why I didn't think so, at which point she got extremely pissed off- she's always hated it when she doesn't get her way. Of course, she reassured me that she'd never hurt me, that she wasn't interested in anybody else, etc etc. I told her I was tired and going to bed when I got home. 

Friday night my boss and I said fuck working the Angels game (especially after we missed goal for our station by 5 people- totally unheard- of in my District) and grabbed a quick dinner before I headed back down to San Diego. Made some calls while I was on the road, and met up with some of the PB crew at Plum Crazy for drinks. Of course, Melinda (Amy's former roommate and best friend from high school onward), and Katherine (one of her former classmates from PCOM) were there, and inevitably the conversation turned to what was going on with us. 

The two girls basically put into words for me what had been floating around in my mind for the last week or so. 

"Ted, honestly, as much as you do for her, and as good as you are to her, and as much as you give to your relationship with her, you can do a lot better. She really doesn't give back nearly as much as she should be."

Hmmm.....I'd started to get premonitions that I was beginning to get into that familiar territory of being used a couple of weeks back- but hearing them say it helped solidify things a lot better in my mind. 

Yesterday, my roommate Billy and I helped her and her mom move from her old place in Serra Mesa to her new place in La Mirage. On the hottest day of the summer thus far. 

10 hours later, Billy and I had finished moving all of her stuff for her- when I got over there yesterday morning, hardly anything was packed, and it was almost as if they'd just decided to start moving that morning. Then, while we did all of the heavy lifting, Amy and her mom had a lovely conversation with her roommate Nichole and her mom- I think they assumed we were going to do all the work for them. Add in the hour and a half lunch that Amy's mom took us to (during which she got quite drunk and made a lot of very unfriendly anti- military remarks), and needless to say it made for a bad situation. Then, after I left and talked to her when I got home last night, she got pissed off at me about the whole thing.
"Well, if you didn't want to help me move, you didn't have to say that you'd help- we could have just hired somebody, if I'd known you were going to have such a bad attitude about the whole thing, you really didn't have to help."

And no matter how much I tried to talk to her about the whole thing, she couldn't understand why Billy and I were so annoyed about the whole move situation. I finally stopped trying to explain it, realizing that no matter what I said, she wasn't going to understand it, and just told her it was cool.

She called me a bit later that night, I think trying to get me to come over (she spent a good portion of the afternoon yesterday trying to get me to make out with her), and after I told her I didn't want to go over there, but wanted to talk to with her, she got pissed off again and told me she'd talk to me today.

Just got off the phone with her about half an hour ago- now she's mad because she wants to know how I can dismiss this relationship so quickly, how fucked up it is, etc. I told her I'd talk to her later. 

So that's pretty much it for us, I guess. Obviously this isn't something I really want to drag out any longer than I have to, and there's no way this could work out in any way that could be considered good. Yes, maybe we'll be able to be friends at some point in the future, but not right now. For her to say all of the things she said to me really hurts- I thought I meant more to her than that, and it's almost like she doesn't give a damn about what I feel. Time to cut my losses and move on.