How are we in this place again, suffering from acute loneliness when the person we love is right there within our reach and yet so far away....
What I did learn from my failure is this - the longer you wait for change, the more resentment and bitterness builds up, until like me you crack and fall apart. Expecting things to get better is what destroyed us, I kept telling myself it would get better - after he got the job/after we got a place/after we got engaged/after we got married/after I finished school. He got the job, we had a place, we got engaged, I got into school - but nothing got better, everything got worse. I kept waiting cause I love him so much, I kept pushing and holding on to hope. Until 5 years later I finally cracked and let go and it got so much better; but in the process I lost him.. So what was it all worth...
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What I did learn from my failure is this - the longer you wait for change, the more resentment and bitterness builds up, until like me you crack and fall apart. Expecting things to get better is what destroyed us, I kept telling myself it would get better - after he got the job/after we got a place/after we got engaged/after we got married/after I finished school. He got the job, we had a place, we got engaged, I got into school - but nothing got better, everything got worse. I kept waiting cause I love him so much, I kept pushing and holding on to hope. Until 5 years later I finally cracked and let go and it got so much better; but in the process I lost him.. So what was it all worth...