The Ex- Girlfriend

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Just spent over an hour and a half on the phone with Jana, and it felt really nice to talk to her, in a strange way. I've missed talking to her, and she agreed that we need to keep in better touch then we have been. This last semester, she's been even busier than I have- working as a bartender as well as going to school full- time, she said she hasn't had much free time to herself, making me wonder about how much longer we would have stayed together. It's no big secret that the reason we broke up was because I was too busy to really make the relationship work over long distance, but if her schedule now is beginning to rival mine, I wonder at how much longer we would have been able to maintain it if we hadn't called it off when we did. At the same time, though, it made me miss what we had back then; it's been a lonely last few months here, what with not really having enough time in- port to meet new people or even spend time with the friends I have, then going right back out to sea again. I'll be very happy to get back into the yards this winter, if even only for a few months. It was nice to have somebody to come home to, somebody to sit on the couch and just chill with, somebody to cook for, call home for, rush home from work for. Somebody to kiss goodnight every night before going to sleep, and somebody to wake up beside every morning. The more time I spend alone, the more I realize how much I miss those little things. Hopefully, I'll find that again one day. Who knows?

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[(Anonymous)]

This girl misses her friend Ted. Oh, to have an elevator.

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