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This past weekend
Jul. 20th, 2003 11:20 pmSo Saturday morning, I got off duty, went home, showered, changed, finished burning some special CD's, and took off for Boone, to finally see Ali, the girl I've been talking about so much recently in here. Being back in North Carolina, especially the high country, was intoxicating....it's been 5 or 6 years since I've been up that way, and the natural beauty, the smells, the views, I'd all but forgotten. I stopped at a rest stop outside of Wilkesboro to get my bearings and could smell the rhodoendrons in bloom, and hear the birds calling back and forth. It's so much more peaceful up there, so much quieter and laid back than down here, and so SO much more colorful. I made it up to Boone not too long after that with a little help from Ali, and finally we laid eyes on each other. She was of course as cute as I remembered, and had one of the biggest, brightest smiles I've seen in a long time. Ah, it's no wonder I have such a Carolina girl fetish...
We drove out onto the Blue Ridge Parkway, which is one of the prettiest drives on the East Coast, in my opinion and she took me to a few really pretty overlooks to take pictures and just enjoy the view. Sadly, it was hazy out by the time we got there so the view wasn't as crisp and sharp as it usually is, but on the clearest days, it's possible to see the skyline of Charlotte from several of the higher points. That was a bit dissappointing- having passed within 100 miles of home on I-85, I would have loved to have gotten a glimpse of it. I'll post the pictues later, after I finish messing around with them on my computer.
We went back to her apartment and continued talking, then decided to order something for dinner. We decided to go Greek- I haven't had a decent Gyro or any other good Greek food since I moved out of the Carolinas, so I was really looking forward to it. While waiting for the food, I also went out and grabbed a bottle of Chardonnay and a 6- pack of Yeungling. We ate watching Monsters Inc, and I commented on how much the little girl in the movie reminds me of my sister when she was a baby. Ali thought that was cute, and after we finished eating we moved closer and started to lightly flirt as we finished watching the movie and started to watch Dumb and Dumber on TV. We made it most of the way through before she asked me about her birthday present ( a couple of CD's I'd burned with her in mind). I ran out to the car, and came back in with the discs, put in disc one, and pushed 'play'. Now, going on everybody's requests, past experience, and conversations with her, I think I put together a pretty good mix. (Official playlist will be in a later post) I kissed her, and we surprised each other with how much we enjoyed kissing, and I was very pleasantly pleased with how good of a kisser she was- after my last couple of experiences, it was VERY nice to finally be with somebody who knew what she was doing.
Inevitably, clothes started ricocheting around the room and the temperature began rising as we both succumbed to the mutual attraction and heat building up between us... I won't go into detail now about the sex, but I was pleased, surprised, and that much more drawn in by her. I told her so afterwards, telling her that I thought maybe I was falling in love with her, and she kinda giggled as we lay there holding each other side by side as we slowly fell asleep.
I woke up before her the next morning and lay there with her in my arms for a good long time, watching her sleep so peacefully and calm. She looked absolutely beautiful lying there, her hair around her head and face like a halo, her mouth drawn up in a tight little bow, her lips just barely pursed and almost begging to be kissed. It was all I could do to resist leaning over and trying to wake her up that way.
She woke up a couple of hours later, and we sat and watched TV for a while, not really saying anything too terribly much, except to poke fun at MTV, until she turned to me.
"Hey Ted?"
"yeah babe"
"Can I say something?"
"of course!"
"Ted....I can't do this."
"......which part?"
"I thought I was over my ex boyfriend and could hop right into something else, but I'm not strong enough to do that."
"oh......"
Not exactly what I was expecting to hear. We talked about it for a good long time, and decided that it was best that she'd said something now, instead of later. When asked where we should go from there, she couldn't answer, so I answered for her:
"Well I know at the very least we're still parting as very good friends, and you know I'll ALWAYS be here for you.....and when you work things out in your head, I'll still be around."
She smiled and thanked me for that, and shortly after, I left to head back up to Virginia.
The drive home gave me a lot of time to think about things, as long drives often do. This time, however, I didn't get the chance to turn into my own worst enemy: I had way too many conflicting thoughts about what had happened over the previous 24 hours to mull over. I evaluated where I was, and came to the conclusion that she'd caught me at just the right time, before I had fallen too terribly far, and no damage or scarring had been done, which was a very good thing. I also reminded myself that what she'd done had been the right thing, and though I hadn't expected it, if I'd really looked at what I knew about her and her ex- boyfriend, I should have known better. But, what's done is done, and I try not to live with regrets, so I put it behind me until I had a chance to talk to her after I got home.
I pulled into my drive way about 3 hours ago, and very shortly bumped into her online. We talked about the past weekend, and shared that we were both very glad I'd gone up for the weekend, even if things hadn't worked out like I'd originally thought they would. I asked her about her single history, and she revealed that she didn't really have one, so I suggested that it might be healthy for her to go about establishing one- I've always found that being single is a good way to clear your head, work out stuff in your mind, and find out who you really are, what you want, and where you want to go, without the pressures of considering somebody else weighing down on top of you as well. She considered it, and we talked a bit longer before she said good night. I'm glad to say that we're still friends, and I really want to hang out with her again- I had a blast being up there this weekend, even if it wasn't for as long as I would have liked.
As for where I go from now, several people have asked me about that, and to be honest, I have no clue. I guess I'm single again, and I'm still pretty much sick of it, and I burned a couple of bridges in my pursit of her. The good news about that is, at least I have a couple of weeks at sea away from all of that to think about and decide what to do next. The road ahead is still much longer than behind, and I guess I'll just do what I've always done in the past, keep riding along until I can see what's around the corner.
We drove out onto the Blue Ridge Parkway, which is one of the prettiest drives on the East Coast, in my opinion and she took me to a few really pretty overlooks to take pictures and just enjoy the view. Sadly, it was hazy out by the time we got there so the view wasn't as crisp and sharp as it usually is, but on the clearest days, it's possible to see the skyline of Charlotte from several of the higher points. That was a bit dissappointing- having passed within 100 miles of home on I-85, I would have loved to have gotten a glimpse of it. I'll post the pictues later, after I finish messing around with them on my computer.
We went back to her apartment and continued talking, then decided to order something for dinner. We decided to go Greek- I haven't had a decent Gyro or any other good Greek food since I moved out of the Carolinas, so I was really looking forward to it. While waiting for the food, I also went out and grabbed a bottle of Chardonnay and a 6- pack of Yeungling. We ate watching Monsters Inc, and I commented on how much the little girl in the movie reminds me of my sister when she was a baby. Ali thought that was cute, and after we finished eating we moved closer and started to lightly flirt as we finished watching the movie and started to watch Dumb and Dumber on TV. We made it most of the way through before she asked me about her birthday present ( a couple of CD's I'd burned with her in mind). I ran out to the car, and came back in with the discs, put in disc one, and pushed 'play'. Now, going on everybody's requests, past experience, and conversations with her, I think I put together a pretty good mix. (Official playlist will be in a later post) I kissed her, and we surprised each other with how much we enjoyed kissing, and I was very pleasantly pleased with how good of a kisser she was- after my last couple of experiences, it was VERY nice to finally be with somebody who knew what she was doing.
Inevitably, clothes started ricocheting around the room and the temperature began rising as we both succumbed to the mutual attraction and heat building up between us... I won't go into detail now about the sex, but I was pleased, surprised, and that much more drawn in by her. I told her so afterwards, telling her that I thought maybe I was falling in love with her, and she kinda giggled as we lay there holding each other side by side as we slowly fell asleep.
I woke up before her the next morning and lay there with her in my arms for a good long time, watching her sleep so peacefully and calm. She looked absolutely beautiful lying there, her hair around her head and face like a halo, her mouth drawn up in a tight little bow, her lips just barely pursed and almost begging to be kissed. It was all I could do to resist leaning over and trying to wake her up that way.
She woke up a couple of hours later, and we sat and watched TV for a while, not really saying anything too terribly much, except to poke fun at MTV, until she turned to me.
"Hey Ted?"
"yeah babe"
"Can I say something?"
"of course!"
"Ted....I can't do this."
"......which part?"
"I thought I was over my ex boyfriend and could hop right into something else, but I'm not strong enough to do that."
"oh......"
Not exactly what I was expecting to hear. We talked about it for a good long time, and decided that it was best that she'd said something now, instead of later. When asked where we should go from there, she couldn't answer, so I answered for her:
"Well I know at the very least we're still parting as very good friends, and you know I'll ALWAYS be here for you.....and when you work things out in your head, I'll still be around."
She smiled and thanked me for that, and shortly after, I left to head back up to Virginia.
The drive home gave me a lot of time to think about things, as long drives often do. This time, however, I didn't get the chance to turn into my own worst enemy: I had way too many conflicting thoughts about what had happened over the previous 24 hours to mull over. I evaluated where I was, and came to the conclusion that she'd caught me at just the right time, before I had fallen too terribly far, and no damage or scarring had been done, which was a very good thing. I also reminded myself that what she'd done had been the right thing, and though I hadn't expected it, if I'd really looked at what I knew about her and her ex- boyfriend, I should have known better. But, what's done is done, and I try not to live with regrets, so I put it behind me until I had a chance to talk to her after I got home.
I pulled into my drive way about 3 hours ago, and very shortly bumped into her online. We talked about the past weekend, and shared that we were both very glad I'd gone up for the weekend, even if things hadn't worked out like I'd originally thought they would. I asked her about her single history, and she revealed that she didn't really have one, so I suggested that it might be healthy for her to go about establishing one- I've always found that being single is a good way to clear your head, work out stuff in your mind, and find out who you really are, what you want, and where you want to go, without the pressures of considering somebody else weighing down on top of you as well. She considered it, and we talked a bit longer before she said good night. I'm glad to say that we're still friends, and I really want to hang out with her again- I had a blast being up there this weekend, even if it wasn't for as long as I would have liked.
As for where I go from now, several people have asked me about that, and to be honest, I have no clue. I guess I'm single again, and I'm still pretty much sick of it, and I burned a couple of bridges in my pursit of her. The good news about that is, at least I have a couple of weeks at sea away from all of that to think about and decide what to do next. The road ahead is still much longer than behind, and I guess I'll just do what I've always done in the past, keep riding along until I can see what's around the corner.
